Project Toasty

So Jan, mao nis Fashiontoast! Obsessed kay ko niya ever since gamay pako nga bata. Chos! Mga years ago pa unya karun, I’m stepping it up a notch higher! Ganahan ko mu channel sa iyang ka bongga and I believe ikaw ang instrument na gihatag ni God nako para ma achieve ni nako akong dreams in life. Wehhhhh.

Isa ni sya ka collection of pictures na gi dumotan nako, unya gusto nakong sundon arun bongga pud ko parihang Fashiontoast. Sayun raman ni, mangita lang tag paagi! Dad.a imong cam unya! Hehehehhehhe

Kaning una, murag sayun kaayo noh pero ambot di jud nako ma perfect ang peace sign with matching hilas-hilas nga nawng! Ambot lang oy pero di jud keri! I hope matulungan ko nimo aning nawnga nako ay! Mu peace sign ko, mura mag jeje tanawn! Dapat peace jud! Basin ma-aan kog Koreano! Lolz!

Pariha ani, mangita lang tag bukid-bukid nga daghag plants unya mura lang kog naputos ug table cloth, with matching wonder-wonder sa mga kaganapan sa buhay..

Kani, sayun raman kay ni, sa dan ra, mag lakaw lakaw mura rag gikans merkado, kay sugo’g palit ug lechon manok. Chos!

Kani ay, ganahaaaaaan kay ko! Kana bitawng ako ra usa sa usa ka dakoooo kaayo nga field unya mura kog bag-ong mata nga gwapa kaayo tanawn! Ana lang!

Kani ay, naloka ko ani! Asa ma tawn ta kakitag dan nga pina ingun ani oy? Nindot kaayo wa ko kasabots akong gibati! Patarung-tarung kunuhay sa sapatos, pa as if kaayo! Actually, sa Hawaii ni, unya kay di man ko ka afford ug Hawaii oy! Naloka pa kog hunahuna ug proxy! Lolz!

Kani sya, I think sayun rani, mangita lang kag forest-forest unya as if naglibog ka asa ka mu-agi bisag usa ray agi-anan….

Kani pud Jan ay! Nalain jud ko! Mangita tag building na pwede ta katambay tambay sa babaw unya mag sayaw-sayaw kunuhay ko unya imo kong kuhaan while mga buildings ang naas akong luyo! Oh diba!

Kani oh, bongga kays Ate! Ganahan kay ko kay bakasyonerz kayg dating! Unya ang sun naas iyang luyo! Nindot tingay ni mga alas tres kay orange orange ang sun ba! Di sad ta anang sayos buntag kay panington tag maayo!

Oh kani, sayun rapud ni. Manaka ratas Margarita! Lolz!

In looooooooooooooooove kay ko ani na picture! Kana bitawng simple ra kaayo, way sagol choo choo ba, pero major kayg impact! Chos! Naglibog pa sad nuon ko asay nindot nga lugar para ani. Fort San Pedro? Lolz!

If kita kas pictures ni Kim Yu pag crown, niadto mig place na daghag lamps! Dili dikit ang lamps pero bongga na pud oy! Mada rato! Ganahan kay ko! Imagina if gabii ba, nindooot kay nohhh? Huhuhuhuhuhu

Kani sayun rapud ni, mangita lang tag dako kaayong punuan unya pose pose dayun ko as if namunit kog sagbot. Ana lang!

Oh myyyyyyyyyyyy isa sa akong mga favorite! Rice Terraces! Chos! Bsta kanang daghan kayg tanum bitaw unya nagtiniil rako unya pungko pungko kunuhay, nag reflect sa akong mga sala, sa akong mga gipanglibak, echos echos! Ana lang!

Kani sya, magpagkapariha sa nag una pero mura kunuhay kog fairy nga nag bantay sa usa ka karaan na ruins sa tunga sa forest nga innocent kay nawng. Ana lang! Murag na mental breakdown choo choo! 

Kani sayun rajud ni sya. Yaka yaka lang kunuhay kos dagat, nag sul-ob ug oversized na top, kanang as if way shorts sa ilawm hahahhahaha chossss! Unya pakitas legs! Maka edit ba ka ana para mawa ang mga balhibo sa legs? Luud man kay kog balhibo oy! Nakakahiya! Keri ra?

Mao rani sya Jan! Daghan paman kog gustong sundon na pics niya pero nahasul napud kog save ug pictures! Anam-anamon lang nako! Chos! Oh dibaaaa! Di gaanong challenge, Jan noh? Hehehehehehe ambisyoso kay imong friend! Lumelevel kay Fashiontoast!

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Sooooo…naka collect napud kog new photos from her blog and daghan daghan pud! Ako nimo, tulungin mo akong imemorize ang mga scenes para hindi tayo mahirapan sa pag choreograph! Lolz! Anyhoooooz, here it ghost….

Mura rag paparazzi pic dibaaaaa. Lakaw lakaw kunuhays street duol sa luxury stores unya gidumogan sa press! Asa man ko pwede maka ana? Sa Northwing?! Chos!

Kanang murag nag convey ug story nga kagalang-galang kay ko, unya nitira kunuhay kog drugs mao nang sabog kay kong dagway, lata kay kos lingkuranan, gada kog tasa, pero poise gihapon! Kayanin ko yan!

Pa roll up roll up sa maong sleeves kay gi alimut-an, pa way care sa world bisag bongga nakayng background ug lighting. Pa choy choy kumbaga. Manung ug bugno! Wakekekeke

Oh, so mana man tag fairy-fairy, kani pina passionate shepherd napud! Chos! Naa kunuhay kos bukid bukid, nang harvest ug kamunggay para makulay ang buhay sa sinabawang gulay! Hahahahaahah anaaaaa

Gi invite kunuhay kog fashion show, unya kay pag abot nako, wa namay tao! Nanghipos naman, natulala kog maayo. Na frozen in time! Lels! Nindot unta if sa sud sa usa ka cinema or something dibaaaaa. Mini theatre kaha? Hahahahha

Wa kay ko kasabot asa ni pero naa bitaw syas atop or something unya murag nindot kaayo tanawn! Pabata-bata bitaw syag trip unya ga itom sya tanan. Ambot, feel nako ako ray nag buot buot ug contrast hahahahha pero nindot jud syag concept ha infairness! Gawin natin yan!

Oh mura rag nag balance kay kahugons tumoy! Mu suway kog dupa-dupa sa akong arms, mura man hinuon kog ga Naruto! Pasabta ko!

Kanang murag nikaon sya unya naay nag joke unya murag nagpugong syas iyang laugh, or niditso syag kaon sa pizza bisag init pa kaayo, or natuk-an lang jud sya. Ingun ana. Subukin kong ipull off yan!

Kato bitawng naa kay gi tweet na nag kaon kag toast, nag lingkod sa counter while gi sunlightan, diba akong gi favorite? KAY NA REMIND JUD KO ANI!!! Ganahan jud kay ko ani Jan! Isa sa kong favorites!!! Kanang nag sweater ko, unya as if wa koy shorts sa ilawm unya nag leg warmers unya nag inom ug hot tea!!! As in naka imagine najud ko!!!!

If ka notice ka, hilig kay kog pose pose nga nag fuck you unya itunong sa lips ang finger ba, na inspire ko ani! Ganahan sad kay ko bitaw nga dark kaayo all over unya ako ray nag siga! Keri mo yan, bayet? Subukin mo!

Nana pud ning ang background buildings while naas rooftop! As in, feel na feel ko ang industrialization! Lolz!!

Eto na naman ang peace sign couture!!!! Mas bongga tong tunga sa dan pero nindot rapud ni! Reminds me of a pic sa tumblr na mga babay gisaka ilang top para makita ilang boobziezzzz, subukin ko rin yan!

Mura rag katong nag chill chill sa counter pero kani sa bintana na, with matching uwan unya buildings plus fur cap unya ice cold milk tea! Oh dibaaaaa! Pero di lang tingay ko anang as if nag drama, nag basol sa mga kasalanan sa Diyos! Murag drama ra kaayo!

Mao ni akong idea of a bestfriend photo, kanang nagkabuang kunuhay, unya lipong kaayog itsura, unya black and white. Mura bitawng naa mi among own world! Nindot unta to akong paris ani si bestfriend Pavla unya kay nilarga namans ate oistx! Unsaon nlng?!

Mmmmmmm kaniiiiiiiiii……..kanang gikans ubos imong point of view choo choo arun taas ko tanawn unya naa koy taas na building sa luyo, Crown Regency tingali! Lolz! Perfect napud ang pose, isa ka kamot sa waist, unya ang usa kay nag dala ug bag, unya layers kaayo ang outfit unya slouchy! Perfect perfect! Bsta siguruhin mo, in case nag shorts ko ani, ang balhibersh haaa! Heheheheheheh

Beach pic pero shorts and bikini top nalang. Of course, di ko yan keri! So ambot unsaon na pero bsta beach gihapon unya nag warm up stretching kunuhay, unya butt out para plus points!

Or pwede pud mu pose pose kos may pier. Idk asa, daghag nindot nga pier, the one near SM, sa San Carlos City, or sa Baywalk sa Toledo or bongga sa Dumaguete! Chos!

Nindot sya pero ambot oy, mura syag pang pre-nup, sa akong feeling. Pero bongga! Layers napud, unya daghan kayg rings sa fingers, unya pakita kaayos lashes! Close up raba ni so dapat, matangtang ang bugast!

Gikan kunuhayg gawas sa usa ka store, unya nag atang ug taxi, or trisikad, unya nakakitag piso sa may canal! Ana lang! Lolz!

Ganahaaaaaaaaaaaan kay kos idea aning mu pose unya luyo kay tunnel bitaw, unya simple ra ang scene, pero pumapagaspas ang outfit! Mangita unya kog UMPHHHH jud kaayog prints nga top unya ready to pose nako! Bisag sa entrance lang gud sa Fort San Pedro! Lolz!

Susssss piskot, karun rako ka realize! Maypag gibuhat ni nato sa Crown!!! Nindot ni ay, nindot pud iyang nawng, way sagol drama! Murag kinaraan kaayo ang style nga ambot oy, murag giharana???? Chos! Pero diba kasabot ka?!?!?! Ako man kuno si Enchanted, unya patabang kunos kos mga langgam ug limpyos akong mga plato! Lolz! Basta bongga ang mga bintana!

Much love,

Eubenar ♥

Euben conquers UP Cebu, alone.

Today I had my enrolment for the second semester in my first year in college. What was supposed to be another tiny task to test my independence somehow became a huge step in starting a new way of existing in UP. I was already familiar with my environment and I was ready to rock second sem in UP with the same friends (Katt, Kaye, Astrud, Issa, Shanley) I went with on my first sem.

I already had the feeling Shanley will eventually leave UP and transfer to USC cos she told me her lola didn’t want her there. It wasn’t that bad since I thought I’d still be with Katt. But then days before the enrolment, Katt told me she’s not gonna continue studying in UP anymore as well. To be honest, at first it felt good. You know that feeling when you’re always with someone and you end up getting sick of their presence? Hahah yes that’s it. At least we can go back to missing each other and not having boring conversations on Facebook again, right?

So the enrolment day came and I was busy screwing up everything from my History grades, my prospectus checklist and my schedule. I was done with everything except paying at the cashier (since I wanted to pay the next day) when Katt called and told me she’s coming to UP with Shanley to get their grades and work on their transferring fuckery. I decided to go with them from the CSO, OSA, Guidance, Cashier.

We were right in front of the creepy doors of the OSA, they were about to get their forms for transferring schools. In that moment, it dawned on me that when this shit finally happens, I’m not gonna be with them anymore. That I’d be the only Hearter left in my batch in UP Cebu. I’d have to go back to step one and do it all over again. The weirdest things flashed before my eyes and before they entered the room, I got the chance to blurt out, hopefully not in the most pathetic way possible, “If ever mu change inyong minds, enrolment for everyone, open for all inig November 10.”

Much love,

Eubenar

Haters gonna hate. I’m hella fab! ♥

Do you feel the breeze brushing your face?

Eubenar ♥ is out. Eubensky ☁ is in!

Acquaintance Party

BS Management Acquaintance Party last night. Although I didn’t really put so much effort dressing up, I didn’t look like a loser, cos the rest of the crowd look a thousand times loserer than me! Kidding!

I honestly thought it’s gonna be sucky at first! It’s only the Division doing the acquaintance party in school while the others went somewhere fun-er! We had games, and I thought I didn’t wanna make this night suckier by not participating so I joined in almost all of the games. It was so much fun! I almost won in one game cos I followed my heart, and he followed back! Bahhaahhahahahahaha!

After that night, I can finally say that I’m an established bitch! I have built a strong foundation for my expanding repu-fucking-tation! Okay I dont even know what I’m talking about! I’m gonna reign over UP Cebu! Ahaaaaahahahaaaw.

And oh, forgive me for including such ugly faces of people I don’t even know!

Haters gonna hate. I’m hella fab! ♥

Golden.

I forgot when this happened I think it was last Thursday or Friday (June 23/24).

While I was preparing for school, my Lola’s cousin called up. At first I didn’t mind cos that cousin of her loves talking about anything! Until I realized that they were talking about death. Although I couldn’t hear her cousin talk on the phone, I already had an idea what they were talking about. They talked about all their friends, same age as them, dying. They were naming a lot of them! They talked about paying a visit at a friend’s funeral but then my Lola didn’t want to cos she didn’t wanna go next.

I feel really bad cos right now, she’s already worrying about death. She can’t enjoy what’s left of her cos she’s so worried that anytime soon, she’s gonna leave us all behind. I feel sorry for her! Sakit lang jud kaayo ba nga nakuyawan sila unya murag nag-anticipate nalang na time na nila.

It’s such a mindfuck, you know? You’re never sure when your loved ones are going to leave you. And it kills me knowing that I can’t spend my whole life with them. I don’t want them to leave, yet. It’s going to be super hard for my me and my family. They’re like the ones taking care of us. They do everything for us.

Ostranienie.

June 14, 2011 - Tuesday

So today I went to USC Main with Kat, Astrud and Shanley to meet our friends there! We were worried cos the guard might not let us in since we’re not USC-ers. I just told him that we wanna inquire about enrolling for the next semester and we also asked where the office of admissions is. Biggest mistake! The admissions office was right across where the guard was standing and he could easily see us from his place! Ughhh. But thank God for our super ninja skills, we were able to sneak inside. I didn’t know what to feel when I finally saw the inside of the school! The place looked so nice, the canteen was so fab, everything was so bongga!

Kat called Rohanna who was with Mary O. at the canteen and then we met with her and then we hugged! Looool! So much drama! Then I bought food while Kat and Shanley went somewhere else to see the classrooms that were way  better than the ones in UP! Hahahahaha! Their rooms have aircon. Our rooms suck, only two ceiling fans! What even!

Anywaaaay, the best part of me going to USC was that moment when I finally saw the love of my life! Looooooool. Ahh there’s this really cute guy in I’ve been eyeing since Fourth Year (I think?) and I finally got to the chance to see him! Unexpected! I think I’d be going to USC more often! Heeeeeeeeee. 

And oh, OSTRANIENIE means the defamiliarization of the familiar.

Haters gonna hate. I’m hella fab! ♥

Silk Pillow.

Last night was kind of like an extended ‘Independence Day’ for me cos it was the start of me sleeping all alone in my room. (My younger brother and I sleep in the same room with my parents, you know.) They had to stay in the house we rented in Talamban where my school (forever a Sacred Hearter!) is, so it’s only me, my kuya, and my grandparents left.

It’s a really huge thing for me cos I’d have to adjust not being with my parents anymore! I’m like the can’t-live-without-the-parents type, not like my brothers who don’t even bother about how worried my parents are when they’re gone. Hahahaha. It’s just so sad for me cos I know it’s going to be hard but naaaahhh, I can manage it. After all, I’m a BS MANAGEMENT student! Lololol. And later, i’ll be sleeping alone again. It’s just going to be me and my silky pillow.

Haters gonna hate. I’m hella fab! ♥