Irrelevant Belching

So many things running through my head that I wish I could put into words. And then every time I try to write them down, everything gets mixed up and becomes an unending cycle involving critical thinking, long pauses and multiple hits on the backspace key. Sigh.

Wasting every last bit of extra energy I could use for the upcoming days. Things have been piling up, topped off with the most inappropriate of emotional burdens. And look at me writing nonsense once again. I must be aching so bad right now I needed to vent it out. But I’ll get by.

I wonder why the harder I try to make everyone around me feel special, the more they try to put me down.

Euben conquers UP Cebu, alone.

Today I had my enrolment for the second semester in my first year in college. What was supposed to be another tiny task to test my independence somehow became a huge step in starting a new way of existing in UP. I was already familiar with my environment and I was ready to rock second sem in UP with the same friends (Katt, Kaye, Astrud, Issa, Shanley) I went with on my first sem.

I already had the feeling Shanley will eventually leave UP and transfer to USC cos she told me her lola didn’t want her there. It wasn’t that bad since I thought I’d still be with Katt. But then days before the enrolment, Katt told me she’s not gonna continue studying in UP anymore as well. To be honest, at first it felt good. You know that feeling when you’re always with someone and you end up getting sick of their presence? Hahah yes that’s it. At least we can go back to missing each other and not having boring conversations on Facebook again, right?

So the enrolment day came and I was busy screwing up everything from my History grades, my prospectus checklist and my schedule. I was done with everything except paying at the cashier (since I wanted to pay the next day) when Katt called and told me she’s coming to UP with Shanley to get their grades and work on their transferring fuckery. I decided to go with them from the CSO, OSA, Guidance, Cashier.

We were right in front of the creepy doors of the OSA, they were about to get their forms for transferring schools. In that moment, it dawned on me that when this shit finally happens, I’m not gonna be with them anymore. That I’d be the only Hearter left in my batch in UP Cebu. I’d have to go back to step one and do it all over again. The weirdest things flashed before my eyes and before they entered the room, I got the chance to blurt out, hopefully not in the most pathetic way possible, “If ever mu change inyong minds, enrolment for everyone, open for all inig November 10.”

Much love,

Eubenar

Haters gonna hate. I’m hella fab! ♥

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Eubenar ♥ is out. Eubensky ☁ is in!